I have 4 days of New Job under my belt. I think it is going to work out fine. It is VERY different than my old job. It is wonderful. And I enjoy my lone coworker a lot. The feds there treat us like humans, which is a weird feeling.
I wanted to talk a bit about how this happened, because it is strange.
About 2.5-3 weeks ago, I was angry, frustrated, sad, depressed, and while I was looking forward to our government-enforced week off from work (the library shuts down 4 weeks a year and we have the option to take unemployment, vacation, or leave without pay), I was still unhappy with the job and wanted a new one. Desperately.
I am not a religious person. Spiritual, maybe. Not religious. I tend to feel the universe works in its own way and you and I have no control over it. I also tend to think most of the time we get in our own way. I know I do.
I was watering the garden one evening, the sun had gone down, I was feeling down, and I was thinking about where I was in life and where I wanted to be (I have no clue) and I knew I wasn't making any headway on my own and whatever path I was looking for I just couldn't see. I could feel very strongly that thing had come to an impasse. There was nothing I could do at this point.
So, I gave up.
And I sighed and said (outloud, mind you): "OK. It's all yours. I don't know what I'm doing. If there is a path I'm supposed to be on, show it to me. If there is a teacher supposed to come into my life, bring them. Let's go."
Now, I have said these words before, but to be honest I didn't really mean them. This time, I meant every word.
And a week later, there it was. It is also not lost on me that this is the second time the same opportunity has fallen into my lap.
2 comments:
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I think it has something to do with stopping our struggling, relaxing, and opening up ourselves to good things that are waiting to come into our lives.
I'm so happy you've found yourself in an improved work situation. It makes everything so much better, doesn't it?
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